My life is never quite in sync with what the world thinks it should be and it seems as though this year, March is coming in like a lamb and going out like a lion. Not the reverse. Let me explain. The first week of March, I'm cool, collected, a slave to my job but overall simply focused instead of out-of-control busy. This week has been more along the lines of knowing how much I need to get done and oscillating between bursts of intense production and procrastination. I am going to go ahead and tell you that at 8:15 this morning, it's all changing. Today is the dreaded turning point of March when instead of being a nice spring lamb, it turns into a raging lion. Which will continue until I've finished my dissertation.
Tomorrow is my year 6 PhD TRAC meeting where I meet with my thesis committee and tell them all the things I've accomplished over the last year and please please please can I graduate? 6 years working on a PhD is still less than the 6.5 year average at UMass. I guess I can be glad about that... but it's been a LONG road. I am ready to move on. In order to graduate you need to publish a first-author peer-reviewed publication, minimum one, preferably two. But when you work with Mycobacterium tuberculosis, you take what you can get. I'll have one first-author publication and a couple second-author papers. I am absolutely satisfied with that. The problem is, my paper isn't published yet. Actually, it's not even submitted. The reason it's not submitted is because I was trying out one last thing (famous last words of a scientist) and actually got something to work... on Monday. I rushed to repeat the experiment and am waiting 2 weeks for the colonies to grow on plates, count them and submit the paper. This last experiment really boosts my paper and thesis quite a bit. I identified novel aspects of innate immune mechanisms contributing to the control of M.tb in host cells (theoretically, although all experiments were done in vitro) and I am certain that my thesis committee will be thrilled. My hope is that they will give me the 'go ahead' to write and defend my dissertation, but I think that will commence once this paper is finally submitted. My advisor is confident that my time has come. I hope he's right.
I have a lot to do for tomorrow...
Oh my goodness, I'm not gonna lie, reading your post makes you sound like the most intelligent person ever! Way to go Michelle for being able to tackle a thesis. Yikes! I have a girlfriend in San Diego going through the same thing, she's procrastinating like crazy and envisioning the light at the end of the tunnel. You can do it!!!
ReplyDeleteCorrection: you are tackling a dissertation, not a thesis. Two VERY different things! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Erin! It's so funny because I don't feel very smart... it's different when you're literally surrounded by people who either have a PhD or are working on one. I forget that it's an accomplishment sometimes.
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